What i want now ???

What i want now ? I really can't figure it out....

     I want a car? Yes, because i need it. I need it to make myself easier...To travel and meet my love, to travel to do my job. Today you ask me to find the college available in Taiping, what i can say is, you are brilliant , and u expect me to travel in formal wear, with motorbike ? Try to put yourself in my situation...you will do it ? you will happy and satisfy with your job ?


     I need a job? Yes, because i want to close to baby, so i can find her whenever i want especially i am down...just like today...But , it seem like baby is not free for my stupid emo stuff ??? I can feel that she don't know what to do in my case. It's ok..forget about it. Tomorrow onwards, i will keep in my own, until i can't stand for it...


     What i need now is the feel....the caring and loving feel....do i deserved it ? 

Singapore ? Can I ?

     Few days ago, baby called and tell me that she want to go Singapore after graduate. I was like " Huh? thought that you won't go to Singapore d , and thought that you don't want to talk about this ?"  Hmm....Nevermind. I know that you never give up your mind to go Singapore. Me either, but i have to give up to Singapore to maintain everything, my mom, my brother and sister, and my relationship as well. 


     Baby ask me to go Singapore with her, i know she wish i can go. But, i am sorry, with your result, you can go anywhere you want; With my result, i got no choice and have to stay at Malaysia. Unless i have luck on that time, or else go to Singapore is definitely Mission Impossible for me. 


     Well....I try to be kind that time, tell her that just go to anyplace she want, go..just go....I force myself to say so, under a few condition

*I got no right to stop her.

*She deserve better. 

*Even i can stop her action, but i can't stop her will. 

     So, Bless me that i can keep on remind myself that if she is belongs with me, then eventually she will come back to me. And bless me that i can continue persuade myself to support whatever she want to do, not restrict her. Baby, you are free to go anywhere......anywhere....Just please please please please remember me. Can you ?

Don't Be Too Happy Until it is Confirmed

     Indeed, i already got my first job before i graduate. There is a few so called "Promises" which gain my interest on this job. Thus, i reject an interview opportunity from Recruit Express. However, things doesn't smooth as what i've been told. 

     First, he told me that he will buy 2 cars among these four, Rexton/Harrier/BMW/Wish. He told me that he will give me one of these as a temporary transportation. Eventually, what i get is just a SLK ! (Small Little Kancil). Ahhhaa...with an assumption that you still give me a car....
     
    Second, He promised me that the salary will be quite good. Yea, Right, quite good as in RM1500 per month ? Aren't it should me at least RM2000 ??? Fuck!!! Another disappointment! 


     Third, " Our job is very enjoy one"..... Really? I don't think so....At last what i get is " In this three month, you will be very busy, maybe don't even have the time to company girlfriend". I hope that the last word is just a kidding. It's ok, you didn't say that i don't have the time to go back hometown...So, i still can arrange my time to meet my girlfriend. 


     I wonder, if you never give me those promises, i think i will work with you happily. As in the market, the salary for fresh graduate with transport provided is reasonable in RM1500..Now, because of your empty promises, i will NEVER trust your words !!!

The Day after 9th May 2011

     In 9th of May, 2011, i finish my last paper, Service Management. On the same time, it end my Uni Life in UTAR. Well, i am graduate if i successfully pass my exam...


     10th of May is the day i took another informal exam > meeting up with Baby Calyn Tan's parent....It is another tough exam....My body was shaking for the whole night, keep worrying wonder i will be accepted or not.... But, seems like baby give me a positive result about that. So, now i can concentrate on my career yet will not neglect baby, family, and friends as well..... 


     Between "religion" and " regional"....it's a huge difference in the meaning....i am fucked up with the difference due to my nervous that day when i am questioned by her father in :

 " What is your parent's religion"....

     Damn... i answer it with: 

" My mother come from Taiping, and my father come from Penang"....

     LMFAO...haha.!!!!

     We went for dinner that night, one thing for sure, it's too obvious that my hand is shaking then i taking the soup, luckily they didn't saw it....XD ....

     Baby, it's a good beginning on our future since i am accepted d...i can keep in touch with you more often that we used to be.... No worry baby, as i promised b4...i will put it into action.... wait for my effort baby...Love u ♥