****随着漫长的路程，若我们没有不时的往后看，原本的目标就会被眼前的事物掩盖了。如果有一天你们看到了这篇部落，就趁早，把头往后看一看吧(不是真的叫你转头)， 而是叫你会想起你原本为自己而定的目标。但如果你们还没有目标，就趁现在为自己定一个目标。有时候，目标并不会达到，但，至少有了它，自己还清楚地认识自己。
****初次到拉曼报到的我，是一个独立，万事都靠自己的双手来克服，没有什么事是难不倒我的。直到政府助学金PTPTN的出现，我慢慢的把自己的能力给遗忘了，开始依靠着金钱。思想也停顿在某个角落，感觉就像一个长不大的小孩。
****近来，才让我发觉到这点。原来金钱能使你满足，即也能使你思想永远停顿在金钱的四周。有了金钱，把自己的决定，顾虑，都和金钱联系在一起，现在回想起这种感觉，是多么的讨人厌。
****清楚地看到自己的漏洞，就要即刻弥补！金钱归金钱，虽然重要，但我也不会让你吞噬了我的目标，因为，我会无时无刻的提醒自己！
Saturday, 19 December 2009
Thursday, 17 December 2009
《关系》
＊＊＊＊Father & son were eating burger; Mother was cheering baby; Sister was eating fun fries..... How a sweet family..... These is what i saw jz now at McD.....So envy . A family full of the sounds of children, McD, is the place that can bring fun to people....
But, i wonder, after a few years, the children are growing up, will the family still happy together ? Will the children always get punished ?
＊＊＊＊Well, the feeling of being punished by Beloved father, still fresh in my mind...I remember that one day(that day i was standard 1996), i standing on the school bus n saw you riding motorcycle came out from a junction( which your workplace was located there), i was so exciting as i saw my father on the way back to home. Thus, i stretch my hand and shout on you but, your expression changed... you looks so serious and when i reached home, straight away my father scold me and hit my thigh with a big ruler(i still rememeber that the ruler was big, wide and painted with back animation picture on that surface).Why you want to hit me ? what had i done? You told me that "School bus is used to sit, not stand!" However, i feel bad n angry with my father that time. Luckily, my mom told me that" your fater punish you because he sacre you will injured is the bus emergency stop" ... See ? this is the natural-behavior between a man & a women, one is so "cold" and one is so "warm" in teaching children...So, fot the sons or daughters who hate or dislike their parents, this wide, don't be childlish, parents are the most and the only valuable asset in your life,appreciate it.Father, i really miss you all the time .... Kinda wish you can be my side, together with mom, teaching me what should i do in this situation...
＊＊＊＊Dad(this is how i call my father), i know you are being nice to all of your friends, but can i know where is your limit towards your friends? can you tell me ?? please.... i got the gen from you, nice towards my friends, but...one by one,giving me cut on my heart... we know each other for so long, can't you all being concern on me just for a second ? you will only find me when u need help,you will only text me when you need smth, such a selfish chick... and you, you will only help her?? is it true ? i am making a request on you ,and you giving me excuse. Don't you know that there is another way to help me ?? or you pretending don't know... It is impossible that i am the person making request , and keep making request again after being rejected, if i do so, then is it not anymore making request, it already consider making " force"... Today, i annouced that- ONCE AGAIN MY HEART DIED BECAUSE OF FRIENDSHIP. And i wonder how many life i got for my heart to die for.....
But, i wonder, after a few years, the children are growing up, will the family still happy together ? Will the children always get punished ?
＊＊＊＊Well, the feeling of being punished by Beloved father, still fresh in my mind...I remember that one day(that day i was standard 1996), i standing on the school bus n saw you riding motorcycle came out from a junction( which your workplace was located there), i was so exciting as i saw my father on the way back to home. Thus, i stretch my hand and shout on you but, your expression changed... you looks so serious and when i reached home, straight away my father scold me and hit my thigh with a big ruler(i still rememeber that the ruler was big, wide and painted with back animation picture on that surface).Why you want to hit me ? what had i done? You told me that "School bus is used to sit, not stand!" However, i feel bad n angry with my father that time. Luckily, my mom told me that" your fater punish you because he sacre you will injured is the bus emergency stop" ... See ? this is the natural-behavior between a man & a women, one is so "cold" and one is so "warm" in teaching children...So, fot the sons or daughters who hate or dislike their parents, this wide, don't be childlish, parents are the most and the only valuable asset in your life,appreciate it.Father, i really miss you all the time .... Kinda wish you can be my side, together with mom, teaching me what should i do in this situation...
＊＊＊＊Dad(this is how i call my father), i know you are being nice to all of your friends, but can i know where is your limit towards your friends? can you tell me ?? please.... i got the gen from you, nice towards my friends, but...one by one,giving me cut on my heart... we know each other for so long, can't you all being concern on me just for a second ? you will only find me when u need help,you will only text me when you need smth, such a selfish chick... and you, you will only help her?? is it true ? i am making a request on you ,and you giving me excuse. Don't you know that there is another way to help me ?? or you pretending don't know... It is impossible that i am the person making request , and keep making request again after being rejected, if i do so, then is it not anymore making request, it already consider making " force"... Today, i annouced that- ONCE AGAIN MY HEART DIED BECAUSE OF FRIENDSHIP. And i wonder how many life i got for my heart to die for.....
Wednesday, 2 December 2009
被四面墙壁包围的思想
There has been a while away from Blogging.. Well, lots of obstacles occur in this 1 month period... from happy to unhappy:tough to weak, clever to stupid....bla bla bla...Hah....seems everything change...
* Relize that a promise is not unlimited time... promise will change due to the changes of the situation...
* Buddy is not forever also... buddy also will change even in a few hour... this "a few hour", causing a buddy leave me, and i guess it will be leaving forever.. what had i done ? Thought being good to people will bring happiness.. But it don't.. at last it will bring myself hurt.. and , this hurt can't even get lost of my heart after 1 month... Bro,Belle, i really hope u guys won't leave me.. already 1 buddy leave my world since she say like that to me ...i wish someday, i won't listen repeatly that words " 好朋友不用这样子的”.......
* So what ? i tell myself.. not important.. i knew it takes time to recover ,after a few month, i won't have this kind of feeling anymore... hurting will not appear in my dictionary anymore...hhm.. guess that if i can't get away this feeling of hurt, this might kill me.. this might be my weakness...
Let's wait bah.. i will be stong , and then stronger...
* Relize that a promise is not unlimited time... promise will change due to the changes of the situation...
* Buddy is not forever also... buddy also will change even in a few hour... this "a few hour", causing a buddy leave me, and i guess it will be leaving forever.. what had i done ? Thought being good to people will bring happiness.. But it don't.. at last it will bring myself hurt.. and , this hurt can't even get lost of my heart after 1 month... Bro,Belle, i really hope u guys won't leave me.. already 1 buddy leave my world since she say like that to me ...i wish someday, i won't listen repeatly that words " 好朋友不用这样子的”.......
* So what ? i tell myself.. not important.. i knew it takes time to recover ,after a few month, i won't have this kind of feeling anymore... hurting will not appear in my dictionary anymore...hhm.. guess that if i can't get away this feeling of hurt, this might kill me.. this might be my weakness...
Let's wait bah.. i will be stong , and then stronger...
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