Newspaper

As usual, i bought some newspaper. But today, i leave it beside me and stare at the newspaper for some time before i open it. Somehow, i feel hopeless already in finding job. I was thinking that what's the point of open the newspaper ? everytime i open it the result will be the same. Haiz....

Routine Task

It's been almost a month that everyday i doing the same thing. Wake up, open my computer, finding job, and searching news paper. Honestly, i am start to giving up in my stupid life already. I am graduate, yet still using family's money and girlfriend's money. What the FUCK are all these about??? 


It's always my dream to go into an event management company to get some experience. Today, baby when you tell me that your company want to hire people, i am glad to hear that and even have the intention to apply that. But, it's not a good thing for us. Again, hopeless.. *sigh*...


When only i will get a job ? Somebody please tell me .... T_T

I Hate Myself~~

Counting this counting that;
Predict this predict that;
Planning this planning that;
But so ? i can't even predict the time when you need me the most, i can't even make you happy. Can't even by your side when you need me the most and i need you the most...Can't even hug you thigh when i wanted to do so.


I made a big mistake,seriously a big mistake.....Acting like i am good enough in planning, in fact, an idiot who is pretending to be great...

Speech From The Heart

The following  contents are what i want to say it out, without filtering....


Thought, after 1 year, everything will be fine and smooth between us. Yet, i have change, i care too much, and eventually it become controlling. Couple days ago, i talk about break up with you, thinking of you deserve better partner who can 100% accept what you do. It's hard for me to say it out because i love you too much. Sorry for being selfish. As i told baby, i will never say it again.....


But, things haven't back to normal yet. It's just a feel anyhow, maybe the way you sms, the way you communicate with me...Hmm... I just wish we can back to normal ASAP.


About my job, I got nothing to say because i made this decision myself. I just wish everything will stick to the plan, which is we will go to Singapore work together. What i can promise baby is, I won't leave you because of friends, they will just help me pass through the boring and lonely days. I will not leave you because of other girls, because you know my heart already owned by you, day and night is all about you, and i don't even putting myself close to girls. In conclusion, there is no reason for me to leave you my baby.


Baby, today i only i realize what is the different between Engage, Register, and Married. Hehe....... Guess you know what i am thinking d yea..:P .......One day.....On the beach....I will hold your hand and put a ring on your finger...  Just wait for that day....just wait... and make sure baby hold my hand tight...and never said the WORD again like friday night....Muack...love you