A Day Before Christmas Eve

A day before Christmas Eve, as usual, without baby beside me, i miss her so much. But. i found out i made a mistake again. Perhaps, the mistake + distance, baby won't give up on me. I kinda worry, i worry baby will feel boring of annoyed with the attitude of mine.. and end up with cold war between us.. i don't want the same consequence happen again. Hmm.. baby today moody in sms, i wonder what happen makes baby moody for the whole sms. I am not the one who makes baby moody right ? You can tell me if you want . I mean, anytime. This few days i keep thinking the happy moment between us. Quite happy when i think about it ^^

Today i went to Taiping Sentral choosing Christmas present, cyber cafe, and a few banks. Xuan Yi seem moody as well.. Gosh...i got no idea how to chill this big boy d..feel like walk off that time as i felt pressure on that moment.

Yesterday i got some cash from mom's friends. I know i should be happy. But..i felt pressure as well.. I am not a good student, my result is sucks, my attitude sucks, when i got the money on hand, feeling like i am cheating people's money.

When i wake up later, will be the day to meet up with baby, kinda happy and sad at the same time. Baby, when you see this blog, can you personally talk to me about my problem ? Just tell me how many marks you deduct from me, what you not satisfy, and what you need me to change. Please, i need to know. Maybe you told me before, but sorry, let me know one more time.. :)

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